Topic: My life is in the gutter for a girl I don't even romantically love

+love_of_benevolence — 1 month ago #68,309

I feel so pathetic right now.

Basically, I got close with a girl at school around mid-2024. We knew each other since 2020 but were never really friends. Well, we eventually became friends. And, very fucking good friends. Hanging out every fucking other breath, chat messages probably weighing more than the Earth, going to school together and shit, like, the whole thing. She was (I should say "is" TBH) THE girl of my life... yet never actually mine.

And, she was saving herself for marriage. No boyfriends, obviously virgin, no even innocent touches or shit. Completely pure. She probably only fist-bumped once or something. I was her first ever guy bestfriend. That itself was like a fucking crown on my head. Like, IDK how I can explain my fucking feelings, man. Yet, thought-out all these, I made sure I never fell for her. If that happened, there'd be no difference between me and the other guys after her all the time.

Oh, talking about guys after her, she was also pretty as fuck. She probably has a total of 150 guys trying to bag her since she was fucking 13. That number seems to only be rising. She had multiple stalkers simultaneous, when she was 14-15. Like, yeah, she was HER. (At least in my country, that is.)

Anyways, so fast-forward to late-2024. We had a running joke that a friend of mine (let's call him X) was the perfect guy for her. They were both "good" and shit, IDK. It was a joke... until I decided to make it real. I got her and X to talk and shit. It took me like 2 months just to convince X to DM her. (Because he was an introverted, shy pussy retard IDK man) I had to end up...

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(Man, I'm gonna update this shit if this even gets traction for doesn't get deleted for seeming "fake" or whatever. I am too tired right now. Sorry.)

+Syntax — 1 month ago, 2 hours later[T] [B] #677,051

Consider THIS My brother was really good attracting some truly lovely and sexy girlfriends or friends with benefits. Now he insisted on Marrying a Virgin.
So he got his way. Butttttttt She would only have sex with him to make Children. After 4 kids he knew he had to STOP. So the rest of a looooong marriage was NO Sex, nor would he step outside the marriage.

Could be your friend will discover she does not want much to do with sex when married.

+Anonymous C — 1 month ago, 15 hours later, 18 hours after the original post[T] [B] #677,064

·Anonymous C — 1 month ago, 1 minute later, 18 hours after the original post[T] [B] #677,065

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+Anonymous D — 1 month ago, 6 hours later, 1 day after the original post[T] [B] #677,070

@677,051 (Syntax)
> Could be your friend will discover she does not want much to do with sex when married.

Women can be just as calculating as men. There are plenty out there that just want stability and status, or someone to sire some children. High probability on this one only being useful for the carpool lane.

·Syntax — 1 month ago, 1 hour later, 1 day after the original post[T] [B] #677,071

@previous (D)
I often point out that in Japan when a man marries a woman and she has a child the man no longer wants to have sex with his wife re the child birth factor.
Web says:68.2% of Married Couples in Japan Don't Have Sex!

+Anonymous E — 1 month ago, 1 day later, 3 days after the original post[T] [B] #677,090

self-sabotage?

consider this: you could have been completely open with her that you would consider her a good partner in theory AND still be very clear that you respectfully aren't looking for a relationship with her because you know that's not what she's looking for right now. Don't degrade yourself as a romantic and sexual being just to protect her. Be yourself AND be stable and trustworthy. If you end up falling in love with her anyways well gg, though you said you were fighting against that.

a man and a woman can say they would like this and this and this in an ideal partner and acknowledge that the other part checks those boxes and STILL choose to keep the relationship platonic because a romantic relationship simply wouldn't make sense at that time for whatever reason. Should the situation change and a romantic relationship would seem to make sense then they can make the decision to start dating and see if romantic feelings develop because it just makes sense.

this is the real long game and you were not playing it. You sacked half your pieces because you're afraid that she'll stop playing with you. Then you told her to go play with someone else.

+Anonymous F — 1 month ago, 1 day later, 4 days after the original post[T] [B] #677,100

It's ok; it will get better

+love_of_benevolence — 1 month ago, 1 week later, 2 weeks after the original post[T] [B] #677,352

Hello.

Thanks to everyone who replied, including the "nobody cares" guy, cause that shit was free bump if anything.

Anyways, I am gonna clarify some things and continue the "lore"

Clarifications:

1. Me making sure I don't fall for her is like... confirmed. (IDK what the right word is) What I mean is, I am positive now that I won't fall for her. Not because I don't find her attractive or got myself someone else, but I have grown to adore (not like I ever wasn't) this platonic relationship of ours.

2. Me falling for her or not wasn't the actual point. The actual point will come later into the story (continued below) and TBH... it is probably even fucking pathetic.

Anyways, now the story...

So I got my friend X to finally DM her (albeit, it wasn't even DM, it was a group with the three of us because his pussy ass couldn't message her by himself) As I said before, we had a running joke that the girl and X are made for each-other and shit like that. And the guy was shy as fuck, so it was also kinda fun to tease him with it.

Anyways, now with the group, X got to know the girl slowly. And, during that time, I was chill with it. I had a mini crush on her but you know what, finally getting her a "proper guy" (my friend, X) sounded like an achievement I'd pat myself in the back for.

Eventually, his pussy ass managed to enter her DMs. She was my bestfriend, so obviously, I'd get daily screenies about their silly chats and shit. (Keep in mind, all three of us are teenagers during this time) It was honestly cute AF.

But then... a certain pattern would be noticed in how X would chat. We had a running joke like, "X and the girl are married and I am their lawyer" or however the fuck I am supposed to explain it in English. Me and the girl were completely, 100% certain that the joke was a... well, joke. But X's messages would hint that... he didn't think it was a joke. Obviously, he didn't think they got fucking married through social media, but he showed possessiveness towards her.

Ultimately, my end goal was to see them in an actual relationship and married at the later stages of life but hold the fuck on, they weren't dating yet. Yet X acted sort of like... they were...

The realization hit me about 2-3 weeks into our little group. We had grown pretty close. Everything was going well, but this wasn't supposed to happen. X and the girl aren't supposed to start dating yet. And, they actually didn't. But X thought so. Fuck.

Me and the girl discussed for hours about this shit and it was decided that, she wasn't going to break X's heart. We also had an upcoming important board exam, and shit like that would really fuck over someone's mental health. She was a sweetheart, and wasn't gonna let herself break the all innocent X's heart. Ironic AF, all she did her life was reject guys and break their hearts but oh well, this wasn't the same...

Anyways, I am going to update this later if this gets any traction again. Else it'll just be a massive fucking blob of text that y'all gonna get too bored/lazy to finish.

Regrets hurt like shit.

+ducky !MwWb.dJjRc — 1 month ago, 6 hours later, 2 weeks after the original post[T] [B] #677,358

@previous (love_of_benevolence)
...u said this happened 2024 and now ur saying this happened when u were all teenagers. ur a teenager rn. what

·love_of_benevolence — 1 month ago, 18 hours later, 2 weeks after the original post[T] [B] #677,371

I turned 18 this year

·love_of_benevolence — 1 month ago, 2 minutes later, 2 weeks after the original post[T] [B] #677,372

Oh, and, I am older than her and X. I got sent to school late

+Anonymous I — 1 month ago, 3 hours later, 2 weeks after the original post[T] [B] #677,377

@677,100 (F)
Slam her already

·ducky !MwWb.dJjRc — 1 month ago, 2 hours later, 2 weeks after the original post[T] [B] #677,378

i was 18 when i found tinychan now look at me. i am still here ill probably die in here

+Anonymous J — 1 month ago, 2 hours later, 2 weeks after the original post[T] [B] #677,379

@previous (ducky !MwWb.dJjRc)
And you were a virgin who lost IT Due to a tc Pedophile, who took it from you.

·ducky !MwWb.dJjRc — 1 month ago, 1 hour later, 2 weeks after the original post[T] [B] #677,380

@previous (J)
i forgot that part of my lore

+Anonymous K — 1 month ago, 2 hours later, 2 weeks after the original post[T] [B] #677,382

Uhhhh, okay 👍

·Syntax — 1 month ago, 12 hours later, 2 weeks after the original post[T] [B] #677,386

@677,380 (ducky !MwWb.dJjRc)
You and Triptich.
One wonders how many he did his deed2

·ducky !MwWb.dJjRc — 4 weeks ago, 8 hours later, 2 weeks after the original post[T] [B] #677,390

@previous (Syntax)
please stop now

+Anonymous L — 4 weeks ago, 6 hours later, 2 weeks after the original post[T] [B] #677,392

it'll be fine

·Syntax — 4 weeks ago, 9 hours later, 2 weeks after the original post[T] [B] #677,416

@677,390 (ducky !MwWb.dJjRc)

·ducky !MwWb.dJjRc — 4 weeks ago, 4 hours later, 2 weeks after the original post[T] [B] #677,418

@previous (Syntax)
i forgive u ♥️

·Syntax — 4 weeks ago, 2 hours later, 2 weeks after the original post[T] [B] #677,420

@previous (ducky !MwWb.dJjRc)

·ducky !MwWb.dJjRc — 4 weeks ago, 43 minutes later, 2 weeks after the original post[T] [B] #677,422

@previous (Syntax)
friends 4 ever

·Syntax — 4 weeks ago, 21 minutes later, 2 weeks after the original post[T] [B] #677,423

@previous (ducky !MwWb.dJjRc)

·love_of_benevolence — 1 day ago, 3 weeks later, 1 month after the original post[T] [B] #677,987

Oh shit, I had forgotten about this.

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