TinyChan

i may have missaid a few things.
(wait why am i saying as anons? oh yeah thats right. to keep my otherwise empty pages clean from negative feelings and things that is not pretty art...which i dont seem to possess until(talent)ask me again and i wont rmb but heh)

the history book;
i wanted to be in history as "artist".
or to quote some creator of shenmue page"- designer, programmer" + "animator"
but i said it wrong. or it s impossible :
as i am late by 6-7 years in debut i guess.

some people i know somehow did less than me in 3 years, and get more achievement when we were in the same age of sort.
you can say "are you jelous"(which is a. dick move because you are stupid)
but i say
no because i hate their drawing style so naturally i just think "eh, ok lets get something like that" and i didnt.

by the time i re read the history in wikipedia again, i just realized my idols got things started at 19 and 22, and i was working and practicing of sorts (without aim but just to get traffics), and i am already 27. aand havent begun anything good... like published in JUMP or even know jpanese. hehe

but nvm. afterwhile it sinks into me that
"if it s not JUMP, then anything alike will do...youtube, some webcomic site, idk" a bargain of dreams.

and since some artist started at 30ish too, not gonna name drop, i also removed my idol list to only these ..."latecomers"

and since i am not gonna be 19 anymore
i guess i dont care about being in history wikipedias, but more of, gettin act it out... like reaching their hieghts as much. and make a living.
well. i dont know english that well anymore.

the jpnese/korean didnt, why should i? or really, i wasnt that good to begin with.

so lets seee. will i debut before 30? just because .... well. maybe getting attached to historical feats are terrible.

but then, how do you see the market yourself anyway? this, i dont know. and i think everyone is smarter than me on this.
how unfair.

ohwell

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