
I got arrested twice this week (once for uttering GRAPHIC DEATH THREATS and once for ATTEMPTING SUICIDE).
To make matters worse,I am losing my girl by trying to control her and keep her from seeing others who pose a threat to me, which I now realize is WRONG AND I WILL NEVER DO IT AGAIN. I LOVE MARIA WITH ALL MY HEART AND WILL DO ANYTHING TO KEEP HER. I EVEN WROTE AN APOLOGY LETTER TO MARIA'S MOM AND ENTIRE FAMILY PROMISING TO CHANGE MY BEHAVIOR. HOW CAN I KEEP A GIRL WHO THINKS I AM SMOTHERING OR CONTROLLING HER? I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT HER, EVERY CUTE LITTLE QUIRK RIGHT DOWN TO THE WAY SHE CALLS ME 'LOVE' EVERY OTHER SENTENCE.
WITH THIS GOING ON, I AM STARTING TO FEEL THE MENTAL EFFECTS OF DECADES OF DRUG USE. I have SWORN OFF EVERY DRUG BESIDES WEED NOW, but I feel constant emotional pain and distress, and I can't sleep properly or enjoy a single moment of the day because I catastrophize too mucha nd worry about losing everything. I have everything I have ever wanted, but I know it is going to hurt like a bitch and drive me to a successful suicide attempt when it all gets ripped away from me.
TODAY I WANTED TO STAB MYSELF IN THE HEART AND ALL I KEEP PICTURING IS MY OWN DEATH AND DEMISE. I KNOW I AM A BAD PERSON, BUT AT THE SAME TIME I WANT TO CHANGE AND I KNOW THERE IS A LOT OF GOOD IN ME THAT PEOPLE OVERLOOK. EITHER WAY, I JUST NEEDED SOMEWHERE TO VENT.
There is no way on earth there is another living soul in Canada who wants to fuck that deaf goblin you hooked up with.

Keep insulting my girl behind a screen. Do it in person and you won't like what I do to you...

I want to marry Maria
(Edited 37 seconds later.)
@previous (Eco + Miss Maria)
> I want to marry Maria
Then propose and make an honest goblin out of her.
@previous (B)
> > I want to marry Maria
>
> Then propose and make an honest goblin out of her.
I JUST NEED TO SAVE UP FOR A RING AND PLEASE DON'T SPEAK ABOUT MY SOULMATE THAT WAY BRO. I AIN'T TRYING TO GET IN MORE BEEFS AND FIGHTS.

and I will need AT LEAST 10 THOUSAND FOR A DECENT WEDDING CEREMONY FOR ME AND MARIA.
@587,336 (Eco + Miss Maria)
Boohoo a little scratch. Go deeper next time pussy.
@587,339 (Eco + Miss Maria)
> Keep insulting my girl behind a screen. Do it in person and you won't like what I do to you...
You won't do shit. You'll pussy out and threaten to get your "goons" after us. Are they a bunch of circus midgets like your girl?