Glad you're not dead.
I actually was worried when you posted that video about you killing yourself.
Smoke weed, find a job, if you got a guitar, go sit somewhere kinda busy and play it.
@OP
Thanks DeadPool, I appreciate the concern.
I fantasize about suicide a lot, and enact scenarios in my mind, and sometimes make attempts...
I threw away my Crack Pipe tonight. I will stick with the Green, and hopefully get involved with Narcotics Anonymous again and make job connects.
I sold my guitar collection (had an Ibanez Artcore, Danelectro 59, Godin Radiator, Hamer Slammer, Epiphone LP, and a few more, but I hocked them all for dope money.
Now, I expect to have more $ to invest in music gear now that I'm not smoking crack.
Again, thank you for your concern!
I feel sorry for Undertaker who will not have bread to put on table because Eco did not die.
Grave diggers as well needed the money.
Casket makers go hungry.