Ok,I know that this question is kinda of silly and obvious, but alot of times behaving like I'mma victim will milk all my potential progress,and I want to stop this insufficient way of living, I want to leave all my scars or at least not recognizing it's existent, I don't want scars to define all of me for something I don't want to have any relation with, I know I'mma a fucking loser for not figuring this out by myself, but there is no one other than myself know it, I found pleasure in hating toward something that is evil, but I want to be positive, I want to be different than the bigoted minded people that caused all of this pain, I want to live one postive life, not two miserable one's. U may give me sympathy so that I would feel better continuing what I'm doing, or u may tell me that I need to man up and stop recognizing the disownment of everything thing that I've ever loved and known. i know that all of this is caused by some empty hole in myself, but I can't fill any of the past up, I can't be reborned to something I can at least stick to some of it to this day.
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@previous (Some wannabe loser(say it 3 times with an accent))
and a nugget cahracter to play the nugget ranger, yes we know ugh