
Been admitted and discharged from 2 rehab centers and 2 hospitals in a matter of 3 days. Got some chick’s number whilst in the Mental Health Unit.
Went out on the town with the girl in the pic, and got smashed and thrown out of 2 bars.
Smoked crack yesterday.
I just can’t win...
I wanna get sober, but I get panic attacks when I’m in a group setting, so how can I make it through a rehab program or endure AA, NA, and CA meetings?
Been on: Ativan, Valium, Epi-Val, Seroquel, Olanzapine, Halidol, Mirtazipine, Trazidone, Zopiclone, Abilify, Remron, and medical cannabis, but nothing helps.
If I had access to a gun, I’d shoot myself in the head...
If I had a car, I’d start it in the garage and CO poison myself...
If I had a bit of dough, I’d buy a helium rig, and gas myself to sleep...