https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Saudade
> Saudade is a deep emotional state of nostalgic or profound melancholic longing for an absent something or someone that one loves. Moreover, it often carries a repressed knowledge that the object of longing might never return. Saudade was once described as "the love that remains" after someone is gone. Saudade is the recollection of feelings, experiences, places, or events that once brought excitement, pleasure, well-being, which now triggers the senses and makes one live again. It can be described as an emptiness, like someone (e.g., one's children, parents, sibling, grandparents, friends, pets) or something.
The best example I can give off the top of my head is returning to your childhood home as an adult. You may remember the tender memories but it is of a place that you can never truly return to.
Apologies if you had an abusive home as my example may not fit the definition in said case(Edited 46 seconds later.)