Topic: c&p from another post but please read and please understand & please put aside your indifference..
+Anonymous A — 9.2 years ago #48,026
Anonymous H (you) — 1 second ago, 4 minutes later, 16 hours after the original post[T] #521,250
I CANT EVEN GET TWO DECENT MEALS A WEEK AND i HAVE one one one one PAIR OF TROUSERS...ONE..AND BOY ARE THEY DIRTY RIGHT NOW..
you people NEED to realize something...I am starting to lose my mind over you all saying I should do this...or I should do that and I will be fine..
WHAT YOU NEED TO REALIZE IS MY MIND IS SABOTAGING ME..
goddamn...you think I am operating from a mindset similar to when I was comfortable and stable with a car..job and shelter....that is months in the past..
please think for once before commenting to or about me again...consider the frame of mind you were in in a time of serious grief or stress....and tell me...could you function well in that time...even then you had lots of clean clothes a house a car a home....but yet you felt parilyzed???
THAT is what I have been trying to get you to see....it's not as easy as just going and doing stuff as it was when I had it better..
I am telling you this...I was actually thinking about using a razor knife earlier and bleeding myself out...not today but it has just got to that point...I NEED HELP and I NEED IT SOON.
I need a belt and I need two or three pairs of jeans from the thrift store and I need a haircut so I can go to work..I am sober and I am going to try and stay that way and go to work BUT I NEED HELP.
I am not wanting any pity I am wanting a favor to help me get back to some kind of normal...I have been walking around all day ready to go the hell off because I am at the end of my rope. I just need some help to make it or I can tell you right now I cannot go much further this way. I am serious and I do not have anyone to go to. I know you people think I am beneath you but by God I am not...I just fucked up and I CAN be ok again.
I am so very lost right now I need spomeone to be kind and do the right thing. I did mail syntax yesterday and he seems to have ignored me.
anyone can do the right thing and we wont talk about it on here you wont have to worry about that.
I NEED HELP..
I CANT EVEN GET TWO DECENT MEALS A WEEK AND i HAVE one one one one PAIR OF TROUSERS...ONE..AND BOY ARE THEY DIRTY RIGHT NOW..
you people NEED to realize something...I am starting to lose my mind over you all saying I should do this...or I should do that and I will be fine..
WHAT YOU NEED TO REALIZE IS MY MIND IS SABOTAGING ME..
goddamn...you think I am operating from a mindset similar to when I was comfortable and stable with a car..job and shelter....that is months in the past..
please think for once before commenting to or about me again...consider the frame of mind you were in in a time of serious grief or stress....and tell me...could you function well in that time...even then you had lots of clean clothes a house a car a home....but yet you felt parilyzed???
THAT is what I have been trying to get you to see....it's not as easy as just going and doing stuff as it was when I had it better..
I am telling you this...I was actually thinking about using a razor knife earlier and bleeding myself out...not today but it has just got to that point...I NEED HELP and I NEED IT SOON.
I need a belt and I need two or three pairs of jeans from the thrift store and I need a haircut so I can go to work..I am sober and I am going to try and stay that way and go to work BUT I NEED HELP.
I am not wanting any pity I am wanting a favor to help me get back to some kind of normal...I have been walking around all day ready to go the hell off because I am at the end of my rope. I just need some help to make it or I can tell you right now I cannot go much further this way. I am serious and I do not have anyone to go to. I know you people think I am beneath you but by God I am not...I just fucked up and I CAN be ok again.
I am so very lost right now I need spomeone to be kind and do the right thing. I did mail syntax yesterday and he seems to have ignored me.
anyone can do the right thing and we wont talk about it on here you wont have to worry about that.
I NEED HELP..
(Edited 9 minutes later.)
·Anonymous A (OP) — 9.2 years ago, 7 minutes later[T] [B] #521,252
I am sorry for all the rape stuff I am sorry for all the violent shit...I apologize for any feelings I have hurt..
I am not the terrible person some of my comments and the tons of propaganda about me have made it seem like I am to you...I am really not.
I have never sexually harrassed any female in my life...not in any way. I have no felonies on my record and all the misdos are alcohol relate and do not involve violence.
I have indeed worked like ninety percent of almost thirty percent.
I have given to charities and I have always help people when asked.
'In real life' as the saying goes...I am NOT 'nasty bert'...I really am not.
I am not the terrible person some of my comments and the tons of propaganda about me have made it seem like I am to you...I am really not.
I have never sexually harrassed any female in my life...not in any way. I have no felonies on my record and all the misdos are alcohol relate and do not involve violence.
I have indeed worked like ninety percent of almost thirty percent.
I have given to charities and I have always help people when asked.
'In real life' as the saying goes...I am NOT 'nasty bert'...I really am not.
+chili dog !!heHjtrQ7i — 9.2 years ago, 1 second later, 7 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #521,253
inpatient rehab
+Anonymous C — 9.2 years ago, 8 minutes later, 15 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #521,254
·Anonymous A (OP) — 9.2 years ago, 15 minutes later, 30 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #521,255
@521,253 (chili dog !!heHjtrQ7i)
I dont need rehab...I just need to leave drinking behind...I have only drank like once in about two weeks.
I WANT to go to work but I cant do much dirty and holding my pants up with one hand all the time once my belt breaks...and its going to break...you know whay I will post a pic of it later..
and I have never gotten haircuts regularly enough...right now my hair is shaggy looking and how the hell am I supposed to confidently walk into somewhere and present the appearance of someone suitable for hiring?
I am sooooooo tired of being like this I want to work...I do.
This is the way I am majorly thinking the last week or so...if I cant get to work soon I am just done. People on here think I do not want to work they think I would rather not work and that is absolutely untrue.
The first month or two I was on the street I did not feel this way but I do now. I have always worked. I love getting that check at the end of the week.
Right now I am unkempt and that makes me feel embarrassed when job seeking and I cannot got to work at the factory that is near me with one pair of jeans because I WILL have nastiness on me when I finish the first shift and I cant come back the second shift with nasty clothes.
I just need some help and everyones apparent excuse is they say I will spend any money they help with for drinking and that is anything but the truth because I cannot put up with being this loserly...I just cant. I am ready to get out of this hole but I need someone to throw a rope down into the hole or lower a ladder down to me.
I
I dont need rehab...I just need to leave drinking behind...I have only drank like once in about two weeks.
I WANT to go to work but I cant do much dirty and holding my pants up with one hand all the time once my belt breaks...and its going to break...you know whay I will post a pic of it later..
and I have never gotten haircuts regularly enough...right now my hair is shaggy looking and how the hell am I supposed to confidently walk into somewhere and present the appearance of someone suitable for hiring?
I am sooooooo tired of being like this I want to work...I do.
This is the way I am majorly thinking the last week or so...if I cant get to work soon I am just done. People on here think I do not want to work they think I would rather not work and that is absolutely untrue.
The first month or two I was on the street I did not feel this way but I do now. I have always worked. I love getting that check at the end of the week.
Right now I am unkempt and that makes me feel embarrassed when job seeking and I cannot got to work at the factory that is near me with one pair of jeans because I WILL have nastiness on me when I finish the first shift and I cant come back the second shift with nasty clothes.
I just need some help and everyones apparent excuse is they say I will spend any money they help with for drinking and that is anything but the truth because I cannot put up with being this loserly...I just cant. I am ready to get out of this hole but I need someone to throw a rope down into the hole or lower a ladder down to me.
I
+Beebs !gINgerDI62 — 9.1 years ago, 6 hours later, 6 hours after the original post[T] [B] #521,277
@previous (A)
Stop justifying your bullshit with "I know I'm fucked up". Get some fucking help you dumbass. If you need help, get it. There are hundreds of hotlines and services that can help you. You just refuse to utilize or even look for them.
Stop justifying your bullshit with "I know I'm fucked up". Get some fucking help you dumbass. If you need help, get it. There are hundreds of hotlines and services that can help you. You just refuse to utilize or even look for them.
·Anonymous C — 9.1 years ago, 7 minutes later, 6 hours after the original post[T] [B] #521,279
@previous (Beebs !gINgerDI62)
The same way he refuses to look for a job.
First it was because it was raining, now it's because he looks like a slob.
If he was smart, he would have used the rain to wash the filth off his body.
The same way he refuses to look for a job.
First it was because it was raining, now it's because he looks like a slob.
If he was smart, he would have used the rain to wash the filth off his body.
+FME !2CQezZ7g6I — 9.1 years ago, 5 hours later, 12 hours after the original post[T] [B] #521,289
@521,255 (A)
@521,277 (Beebs !gINgerDI62)
> Stop justifying your bullshit with "I know I'm fucked up". Get some fucking help you dumbass. If you need help, get it. There are hundreds of hotlines and services that can help you. You just refuse to utilize or even look for them.
@521,277 (Beebs !gINgerDI62)
> Stop justifying your bullshit with "I know I'm fucked up". Get some fucking help you dumbass. If you need help, get it. There are hundreds of hotlines and services that can help you. You just refuse to utilize or even look for them.
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