@OP
As a person suffering from severe autism, RedCream knows that his life is completely empty and not worth living anymore. As a doctor, I can confirm this.
C̜̺̺̞̪̳͙̞i͍͇̹͎̜̩a͈̙̙̭o̹̞̖͓͍,̟̳̙̗̮̭ ̺T̳̰̦̮̱͕ͅͅh̜̫̳e̪̦͔͈͚̖̣̞ ̥̜͍̥͇̙D͕͖̼̜͚̦̥̺o͎̞̯̦̗ͅc͇̼̼̹͎̲͓̠t̰̞͎o̮̫̜̬r̺͓̼̺͕̜̯̦.͇
@OP
> my eyes hurt from all this internet
Go to bed Doc, go sleep it off.