Topic: I wish I could say it was paranoia but it's just plain true
+Dr. Sophie !MLHqI35Srs — 12.5 years ago #33,491
Everyone has rational and reasonable basis for judging me to be a functional retard and I will never be able to do anything to rectify my situation. Self-awareness only goes so far when self-ineptitude is present to cap it commensurably. I'm completely mediocre, and that would be fine if I was 'in the loop' for the last 7 years socially, educationally etc. but the damage from my isolation has set in. One might call it self-imposed. I would disagree, one would have to know my mother, her coercion of me to take psychotropic meds which had robbed me of all agency and left me too crippled to function against my will until I had managed to escape her wretched slum hole, one would have to know the rest of my family and their neurotic protection of her side of the narrative, she has managed to rationalize her way out of every apology, not that it'd be good for anything since she is so senile. Worst of all, she admitted to me recently that she could have very easily let me die during labour, but to selfishly save herself (Judeomasonic slave-driving medicine maintained that she would've died if she gave birth to me normally; I maintain this was scaremongering to keep another 'potential asset', for this is all they see of their goyim, alive), she had a ceasaerian section. Enter 19 years endless suffering under her insane night-watching, her chasing of my sperg diagnosis at the instigation of a 'health visitor' (undercover matriarchal usurpation technocrat, planted to ensure the down-stratification of the hypermale) despite display none of the symptoms, until, that was, being diagnosed, the self-awareness of my predicament thereon granted to me by my extreme sensitivity having nocebically destroyed my internal image and self-conception, that I had been successfully 'refrigerated' by Judeomasonic celtonegroidal ancient-Hellstadt-matriarchy socialist Scotland-the-Amazonianly-psychotic Brave-ginger-lesbian-dictatorship so that I could be meliorated through the retard streams which even the incompetent state technocrats admitted was inappropriate for me as soon as it became obvious that I was not, in fact, learning disabled, but by the time they had moved me back into mainstream in my early adolescence, the damage was fucking done, I was permanently destroyed on an individual level left too neurotic to socialize with anyone lest I had risked wandering into the lion's lair with those celtonegroidal yobs thinking themselves superior to me simply because they were not processed by this psychiatric conspiratorial system from their early youth, a combined nocebic-stigmatic cyclical-reinforcement complex to reinforce the narrative that I by design must be grain-millstone-ground into a Fabianly-homogenized perfect retard ("lolcow") for the minstrel entertainment of the celto-negroid NED-yob Catholic Fenian brown-skinned Pictish underclass masses while denied matriculation to the social circles of the more middle-class Protestant whiter Anglo-Saxonics due to their perception of me as the former, having been stained with the name of my inferior, workshy, listless, ineffectual matriarchal disability-welfare-abusing she-whoresse, my first exposure to the quintessential femalewhore harridan cartesan fuccking CELTO-NIGGER backwards lumpen trailer-trash-anywhere-else-in-the-world-except-council-estate-Britain far too generous for its own good. Both I and her should've been incinerated to a cinder.
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+Anonymous B — 12.5 years ago, 4 minutes later[T] [B] #384,250
Can you read it out. It's a little tl;dr
+Anonymous C — 12.5 years ago, 9 minutes later, 13 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #384,251
Have you considered killing yourself as a solution?
+Triptych !IupsXZPnnU — 12.5 years ago, 2 minutes later, 16 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #384,252
wat
·Dr. Sophie !MLHqI35Srs (OP) — 12.5 years ago, 3 minutes later, 19 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #384,253
·Dr. Sophie !MLHqI35Srs (OP) — 12.5 years ago, 53 seconds later, 20 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #384,254
@384,251 (C)
Funny, cunt. I think, as recompense, the method should either come to me, or be painless.
I've considered suicide by nigger, that being said. They'd be easy to rouse.
Funny, cunt. I think, as recompense, the method should either come to me, or be painless.
I've considered suicide by nigger, that being said. They'd be easy to rouse.
·Anonymous C — 12.5 years ago, 5 minutes later, 26 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #384,255
@previous (Dr. Sophie !MLHqI35Srs)
Are you still considering jumping off a bridge with a head full of valium? If you can get enough valium together in one go and a fair amount of booze, doesn't that do the job anyway?
Are you still considering jumping off a bridge with a head full of valium? If you can get enough valium together in one go and a fair amount of booze, doesn't that do the job anyway?
·Dr. Sophie !MLHqI35Srs (OP) — 12.5 years ago, 13 minutes later, 39 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #384,260
@384,252 (Triptych !IupsXZPnnU)
I'm scum.
@previous (C)
I'm told the LD50 of diazepam is fairly high.
I'm scum.
@previous (C)
I'm told the LD50 of diazepam is fairly high.
+Jack !UFatvuyTEQ — 12.5 years ago, 2 hours later, 2 hours after the original post[T] [B] #384,285
+Anonymous F — 12.5 years ago, 22 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[T] [B] #384,286
@OP
tl;dr
tl;dr
·Triptych !IupsXZPnnU — 12.5 years ago, 5 hours later, 8 hours after the original post[T] [B] #384,350
+Anonymous G — 12.5 years ago, 1 minute later, 8 hours after the original post[T] [B] #384,351
OP needs strong meds.
·Dr. Sophie !MLHqI35Srs (OP) — 12.5 years ago, 43 seconds later, 8 hours after the original post[T] [B] #384,353
·Anonymous G — 12.5 years ago, 2 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[T] [B] #384,354
@previous (Dr. Sophie !MLHqI35Srs)
You need serious meds. Have you thought about committing yourself? They can help.
You're a danger to yourself and others.
You need serious meds. Have you thought about committing yourself? They can help.
You're a danger to yourself and others.
·Dr. Sophie !MLHqI35Srs (OP) — 12.5 years ago, 1 minute later, 8 hours after the original post[T] [B] #384,357
@previous (G)
HOW SO? I'M NOT THREATENING TO KILL ANYONE. I'M JUST WISHING FOR THE FIRES OF THE SHENIKAH TO DESCEND FROM THE ETHERIAL PITS OF PURGATORIAL HELL-HEAVEN.
HOW SO? I'M NOT THREATENING TO KILL ANYONE. I'M JUST WISHING FOR THE FIRES OF THE SHENIKAH TO DESCEND FROM THE ETHERIAL PITS OF PURGATORIAL HELL-HEAVEN.
+HaikerensGuide !dBGi/iH4eY — 12.5 years ago, 2 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[T] [B] #384,360
I am NOT reading all this.
+Anonymous I — 12.5 years ago, 6 hours later, 14 hours after the original post[T] [B] #384,404
+Negi Springfield !f1vueXiQRw — 12.5 years ago, 1 hour later, 16 hours after the original post[T] [B] #384,409
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