Topic: Well, it was fun knowing you

+Nautphagina — 12.5 years ago #32,778

So here's the epilogue. This isn't a suicide thread, or an attention seeking thread; I announce my intention to leave, just without certainty as to where I'll take this next.

Autphag's dead. I personally want to die (in fact, I believe it in my conviction that I must, for I can't reason that I'm alive when sentiment tells otherwise), and even though I'm completely without recourse at the moment, maybe this will motivate me to try properly.

I'm done. I won't bother you anymore.

I don't trust any of the sociopaths here, so there's no point acting like I have some kind of camaraderie with this place. You are far too disconnected from any sense of esoteric intuition for me to relate with you; I had only ever felt that with one, maybe two confidants tops.

"Self-indulgent sperging" was the sum of my persona perhaps, to the more aggrandized of you seeking to eschew the idea that your adulation, found through creeds conferred by authority, whether that be religion, morality, or meritocratic delusions from your over-propped curriculum vitae, is just as petty. However, reality was that I had made it to satisfy the end of trying to find existential congruence with an age of nothingness, this age where it is kosher only for vocation, cultural Marxist neologism, or biological disorder can be 'identified' with. There is nothing this age can offer me.

I could even cope with sexual suppression if there was something greater to live for, but there truly isn't. And I don't wish to be associated with the ignobility of hedonistic indulgence if I were to transition, so I can't.

Your dry quasi-science, a public relations machine, is the modern religion, the religion of confidence only in the factoid, to be manipulated as expedient with the bastardized laws of logic per absolute relativism. I, on the other hand, wanted deeply for absolute certainty, and truth, and I believe I shall only find that, if the Judeo-Christians are correct, in the deepest pits of hell, or if every other religion is correct (I'm struggling to think in specifics at the moment, I'm not in the mood), in some state of meditative calm or other noble endeavour. I'm not even scared of the afterlife (or the absence thereof) anymore, and only mildly about how I'll get there.

Honestly, it's over. Don't rub salt in sore wounds; I know some of the angrier anons will, it's my duty to ignore them. I shall try occupy my time with some solitary reading or something. It shall be lonely, but I only seek to be liberated from this existential dungeon.

+Negi Springfield !aeNZeP7XP2 — 12.5 years ago, 11 minutes later[T] [B] #377,224

@OP

+Anonymous C — 12.5 years ago, 2 minutes later, 14 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #377,225

Do you still accept friend requests on Skype?

+Catherine !TGirlYJKXM — 12.5 years ago, 17 minutes later, 31 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #377,226

If you're really leaving this board for good.
I just wanted to say take care of yourself. :-)

·Nautphagina (OP) — 12.5 years ago, 1 hour later, 1 hour after the original post[T] [B] #377,230

@377,225 (C)
I have actually forgotten the password to my old account so for anyone who's interested, new one is: awrucjia

+Anonymous E — 12.5 years ago, 5 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[T] [B] #377,231

@OP
tl;dr

+Anonymous F — 12.5 years ago, 1 hour later, 3 hours after the original post[T] [B] #377,236

@OP

Self-indulgent, self-obsessed word salad.

+Gavin !!I8orsyAAN — 12.5 years ago, 1 hour later, 5 hours after the original post[T] [B] #377,241

It was a pleasure to be your therapist.

+Anonymous H — 12.5 years ago, 1 minute later, 5 hours after the original post[T] [B] #377,242

@OP
I hope you are successful when you kill yourself.

+Triptych !IupsXZPnnU — 12.5 years ago, 21 minutes later, 5 hours after the original post[T] [B] #377,243

Have fun.

+Anonymous J — 12.5 years ago, 11 minutes later, 5 hours after the original post[T] [B] #377,244

@OP
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY

+Negi Springfield !f1vueXiQRw — 12.5 years ago, 16 minutes later, 5 hours after the original post[T] [B] #377,248

@OP
May the LORD (YHWH) bless you and keep you -

יְבָרֶכְךָ יהוה, וְיִשְׁמְרֶךָ
("Yebhārēkh-khā Adhōnāy weyishmerēkhā ...)

May the LORD make His face shine upon you -

יָאֵר יהוה פָּנָיו אֵלֶיךָ, וִיחֻנֶּךָּ
("Yāʾēr Adhōnāy pānāw ēlekhā wiḥunnékkā ...)

May the LORD lift up His face unto you and give you peace -

יִשָּׂא יהוה פָּנָיו אֵלֶיךָ, וְיָשֵׂם לְךָ שָׁלוֹם
("Yissā Adhōnāy pānāw ēlekhā wiyāsēm lekhā shālōm.")

Amen

+Ned Flander — 12.5 years ago, 19 minutes later, 6 hours after the original post[T] [B] #377,251

@previous (Negi Springfield !f1vueXiQRw)
wtf is this get outta here with that kike speak

·Anonymous J — 12.5 years ago, 3 minutes later, 6 hours after the original post[T] [B] #377,254

@previous (Ned Flander )

stfu..

+Anonymous M — 12.5 years ago, 43 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[T] [B] #377,256

Was it really "fun"?

+Hitlerputsch !saAqdaazn2 — 12.5 years ago, 42 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[T] [B] #377,268

@OP

Don't go!

+Anonymous O — 12.5 years ago, 22 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[T] [B] #377,273

@OP

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY..

+Anonymous P — 12.5 years ago, 1 hour later, 9 hours after the original post[T] [B] #377,298

@OP

See you tomorrow.

+Bobby2Sox !!VT4kBE4sR — 12.5 years ago, 47 minutes later, 9 hours after the original post[T] [B] #377,309

@OP
I sent you a PM but I think it may have become lost in your proxy changes.

+FuckAlms !vX8K53rFBI — 12.5 years ago, 22 hours later, 1 day after the original post[T] [B] #377,573

@previous (Bobby2Sox !!VT4kBE4sR)
I think it may have become lost in the fact that you can't send PMs.

+a star — 12.5 years ago, 1 minute later, 1 day after the original post[T] [B] #377,574

can we collectively decide to stop responding to this troll

+Syntax — 12.5 years ago, 1 minute later, 1 day after the original post[T] [B] #377,577

@377,573 (FuckAlms !vX8K53rFBI)
Me thinks Bobby is referring to PM's on SC. Many of us only use SC for that feature.

·FuckAlms !vX8K53rFBI — 12.5 years ago, 1 minute later, 1 day after the original post[T] [B] #377,578

@previous (Syntax )
Shameful behavior.

·Negi Springfield !f1vueXiQRw — 12.5 years ago, 2 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[T] [B] #377,579

@previous (FuckAlms !vX8K53rFBI)
I agree, best to do things in the open rather than in secret.

+Anonymous U — 12.5 years ago, 1 minute later, 1 day after the original post[T] [B] #377,580

With a little tweaking, this could make a great rap song.

·Syntax — 12.5 years ago, 2 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[T] [B] #377,582

@377,579 (Negi Springfield !f1vueXiQRw)
Its normal to use email to communicate STUFF which is not open to the pubic.

PM's are part of lots of net forum software - however its understood by MOST, that mods can read such PM's.

·a star — 12.5 years ago, 45 seconds later, 1 day after the original post[T] [B] #377,583

@377,580 (U)
vocaroo it

·Anonymous U — 12.5 years ago, 10 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[T] [B] #377,588

@previous (a star )
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0kwruqKnou1

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