Topic: Prove how much you actually know about me
+Nautphagina — 12.5 years ago #32,775
I could be a negroid, or a chink, for all you know. I could be anyone. I'm the master of disguise.
+ducky !MwWb.dJjRc — 12.5 years ago, 30 seconds later[T] [B] #377,177
I bet youre a whyte guy
+Ned Flander — 12.5 years ago, 29 seconds later, 59 seconds after the original post[T] [B] #377,178
·Nautphagina (OP) — 12.5 years ago, 2 minutes later, 3 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #377,180
+Anonymous D — 12.5 years ago, 15 minutes later, 19 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #377,190
If this is Autphag, then you know this is an attention whoring thread which you will later recant under a new ID claiming you didn't make this thread, but here are the "facts" that you've told us about yourself:
You're a meth user from Northern Ireland, specifically Strabane, who used to (perhaps still are) a mechanic for Kwik Fit. You had an altercation with some colored person that almost cost you your job. You have Aspergers, or some kind of rare form of autism, where you de-classify the two similar to CWC but have different definitions for them. You are also transgendered, as apparently was the cause because of your lack of a father-figure in your formative years but also caused by your resentment for your mother's parenting skills. You're in your 50s and in addition to your meth abuse you also drink. You've made a "name" for yourself on several backwater chans, including here, 888, and Wizardchan but other than that I've only seen you splash onto tumblr infrequently and maybe a few recordings on vimeo. You claimed to have undergone a transformation after a failed suicide attempt where you ingested a bunch of chemicals then passed out in a forest, then were found by an authority figure who had you committed to a mental asylum then were diagnosed with something and let go. You claim to have a Thoreauvian lifestyle where you manufactured a generator to power your lifestyle in a house that may or may not have been inherited by you from your family, of which the internet seems to be the most stable thing in your life (other than your drug abuse). As far as your personality traits are concerned, you're extremely paranoid, often delusional and very skeptical of modern biology, hard science and think that shapeshifting aliens are dictating what changes as fact, that being a cause due to them stalking you and being concerned with your day to day activities and health. These aliens apparently function on a grandiose scheme where they are out to personally attack you on silly little internet forums because that's apparently a top priority for them, among other things.
That and you claimed that you've only had sex once, in your younger years, with a female and this experience was hollow and unrewarding and this is why you have no desire for female companionship. That and your fundamental response to said companionship may have changed with your recent transformation. It's very hard to follow what you find to be 'empirical' truth (i.e. actual history) about yourself anyway.
You're a meth user from Northern Ireland, specifically Strabane, who used to (perhaps still are) a mechanic for Kwik Fit. You had an altercation with some colored person that almost cost you your job. You have Aspergers, or some kind of rare form of autism, where you de-classify the two similar to CWC but have different definitions for them. You are also transgendered, as apparently was the cause because of your lack of a father-figure in your formative years but also caused by your resentment for your mother's parenting skills. You're in your 50s and in addition to your meth abuse you also drink. You've made a "name" for yourself on several backwater chans, including here, 888, and Wizardchan but other than that I've only seen you splash onto tumblr infrequently and maybe a few recordings on vimeo. You claimed to have undergone a transformation after a failed suicide attempt where you ingested a bunch of chemicals then passed out in a forest, then were found by an authority figure who had you committed to a mental asylum then were diagnosed with something and let go. You claim to have a Thoreauvian lifestyle where you manufactured a generator to power your lifestyle in a house that may or may not have been inherited by you from your family, of which the internet seems to be the most stable thing in your life (other than your drug abuse). As far as your personality traits are concerned, you're extremely paranoid, often delusional and very skeptical of modern biology, hard science and think that shapeshifting aliens are dictating what changes as fact, that being a cause due to them stalking you and being concerned with your day to day activities and health. These aliens apparently function on a grandiose scheme where they are out to personally attack you on silly little internet forums because that's apparently a top priority for them, among other things.
That and you claimed that you've only had sex once, in your younger years, with a female and this experience was hollow and unrewarding and this is why you have no desire for female companionship. That and your fundamental response to said companionship may have changed with your recent transformation. It's very hard to follow what you find to be 'empirical' truth (i.e. actual history) about yourself anyway.
·Nautphagina (OP) — 12.5 years ago, 11 minutes later, 30 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #377,195
·Anonymous D — 12.5 years ago, 14 minutes later, 45 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #377,204
@previous (Nautphagina )
After your release from that asylum, your 'moment of clarity' made you a pretty like-able person because of your obvious deep emotional problems and plight for self-identity, however you may have gone back to your old habits of using and drinking and this made you a pretty irksome individual who still deeply resents anyone that may have some different worldview than yours. This is deeply evident from the fact that you claim everyone (including those who support you) to be the same individual of some kind of make-up (be they cogsdev, ducky, spacepirate, fuckalms, introman, tgcomix, et. all except for Rika at this juncture) where they are out to harm you in some kind of way. You reject friendship (probably because of the last person you confided in didn't do what you wanted them to) and go so far as to put down those that try such (most likely because of your overly suspicious attitude towards everyone you meet) and basically refuse to let anyone near you because you may consider them trolls or something of the like.
Oh, and it seems like the only person that Autphag really trusts are white nationalist authors, as they are mostly infallible in his mind, but those who interact with him are usually traitorous troll scum. I think that could be some form of hero worship where the people that don't actually exist in his world are people that are by definition not out to get him because they do not know him in any personal way. Pretty much everyone and anyone that has been in actual contact with him has betrayed him in some form or fashion in his mind.
I know, I know, I'm being horribly armchair psychologist here. I don't pretend to really understand Autphag's endgame with their behaviour but I'm obviously conjecturing and making stabs in the dark at what their mental make-up is, so take it with a heavy grain of salt.
After your release from that asylum, your 'moment of clarity' made you a pretty like-able person because of your obvious deep emotional problems and plight for self-identity, however you may have gone back to your old habits of using and drinking and this made you a pretty irksome individual who still deeply resents anyone that may have some different worldview than yours. This is deeply evident from the fact that you claim everyone (including those who support you) to be the same individual of some kind of make-up (be they cogsdev, ducky, spacepirate, fuckalms, introman, tgcomix, et. all except for Rika at this juncture) where they are out to harm you in some kind of way. You reject friendship (probably because of the last person you confided in didn't do what you wanted them to) and go so far as to put down those that try such (most likely because of your overly suspicious attitude towards everyone you meet) and basically refuse to let anyone near you because you may consider them trolls or something of the like.
Oh, and it seems like the only person that Autphag really trusts are white nationalist authors, as they are mostly infallible in his mind, but those who interact with him are usually traitorous troll scum. I think that could be some form of hero worship where the people that don't actually exist in his world are people that are by definition not out to get him because they do not know him in any personal way. Pretty much everyone and anyone that has been in actual contact with him has betrayed him in some form or fashion in his mind.
I know, I know, I'm being horribly armchair psychologist here. I don't pretend to really understand Autphag's endgame with their behaviour but I'm obviously conjecturing and making stabs in the dark at what their mental make-up is, so take it with a heavy grain of salt.
(Edited 4 minutes later.)
·Nautphagina (OP) — 12.5 years ago, 8 minutes later, 54 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #377,205
@previous (D)
> didn't do what you wanted them to
Other way around. The individual in question threw me under a bus, actually. I do still have a few real life acquaintances but no close friends.
> didn't do what you wanted them to
Other way around. The individual in question threw me under a bus, actually. I do still have a few real life acquaintances but no close friends.
·Anonymous D — 12.5 years ago, 7 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[T] [B] #377,206
@previous (Nautphagina )
You admit that you are generally suspicious of anyone that gets close to you, though? Can you explain why that is?
Also, I'm pretty confident that any and all pictures that have been made 'public' regarding his face are not real. About the closest thing to seeing the real thing are those vimeos.
You admit that you are generally suspicious of anyone that gets close to you, though? Can you explain why that is?
Also, I'm pretty confident that any and all pictures that have been made 'public' regarding his face are not real. About the closest thing to seeing the real thing are those vimeos.
·Nautphagina (OP) — 12.5 years ago, 5 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[T] [B] #377,207
@previous (D)
Every time I've let anybody intimate with me on a close level, it always seems to end in betrayal that I have not instigated and seem to have absolutely no control in preventing. Social niceties don't prevent the sudden occurrence of momentary opportunism in people, I have experienced. It means nothing to be nice. It means everything to be this edgy caricature of a psychotic nobleman, especially in modernity, such as is its ruthlessness. So I gravitate towards what protects me. It's that simple.
Every time I've let anybody intimate with me on a close level, it always seems to end in betrayal that I have not instigated and seem to have absolutely no control in preventing. Social niceties don't prevent the sudden occurrence of momentary opportunism in people, I have experienced. It means nothing to be nice. It means everything to be this edgy caricature of a psychotic nobleman, especially in modernity, such as is its ruthlessness. So I gravitate towards what protects me. It's that simple.
·Anonymous D — 12.5 years ago, 4 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[T] [B] #377,208
·Nautphagina (OP) — 12.5 years ago, 5 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[T] [B] #377,209
@previous (D)
Some guy I banded with on my trip to Occupy. He was a sperg in his early adult years. He was some kind of stereotypically neo-Marxist fruitloop, not of the old school at all who literally believe in the Wikipedia propaganda of his own neo-religion; I was still an old-school Marxist during this time, pretty Stalinistic in my outlook. I won't go into deep details as to what happened (briefly; he tried to launch spurious charges out of rage from not supporting his mania-fuelled cause to the fullest, I was only at Occupy to get weed; he resorted to railing the court system against me and semi-successful enough to cause distress, though nothing came of it in the end) but that combined with my general emotional duress at that time (sexual issues notwithstanding), I snapped, and became a National Socialist, went straight to the only guy I knew who was familiar with the entire corpus. My friend from Philadelphia on Skype I discussed before.
Some guy I banded with on my trip to Occupy. He was a sperg in his early adult years. He was some kind of stereotypically neo-Marxist fruitloop, not of the old school at all who literally believe in the Wikipedia propaganda of his own neo-religion; I was still an old-school Marxist during this time, pretty Stalinistic in my outlook. I won't go into deep details as to what happened (briefly; he tried to launch spurious charges out of rage from not supporting his mania-fuelled cause to the fullest, I was only at Occupy to get weed; he resorted to railing the court system against me and semi-successful enough to cause distress, though nothing came of it in the end) but that combined with my general emotional duress at that time (sexual issues notwithstanding), I snapped, and became a National Socialist, went straight to the only guy I knew who was familiar with the entire corpus. My friend from Philadelphia on Skype I discussed before.
(Edited 57 seconds later.)
·Nautphagina (OP) — 12.5 years ago, 3 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[T] [B] #377,210
Listening to his sermons attentively I tried to grasp the greater meaning of his words and with the power of my focus as I had invested in other interests before, I eventually grasped the full picture; I started looking into the authors he kept namedropping, I started looking into the communities he used, I started looking into Ariosophy, metapolitics, and socio-biological human diversity stuff, as well as his other pet interest, masculinism. Masculinism was to be instrumental to my identity in particular as I saw it as the perfect justification to keep faith in not betraying my own sex, for this was now cultural struggle, I was being subverted (or could at least justify a persecution complex further), it was now worth keeping, and not worth desecrating.
·Anonymous D — 12.5 years ago, 5 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[T] [B] #377,211
@377,209 (Nautphagina )
@previous (Nautphagina )
Can you explain in simple terms why everyone shouldn't think you're a troll?
@previous (Nautphagina )
Can you explain in simple terms why everyone shouldn't think you're a troll?
·Nautphagina (OP) — 12.5 years ago, 2 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[T] [B] #377,212
@previous (D)
I think I've failed hard enough on that measure already. That was me plain sperging.
I think I've failed hard enough on that measure already. That was me plain sperging.
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·Nautphagina (OP) — 12.5 years ago, 4 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[T] [B] #377,213
@377,211 (D)
I do suspect he was an anti-fa agent, looking back. A lot of things about the behaviour of him and his associates were suspicious.
I do suspect he was an anti-fa agent, looking back. A lot of things about the behaviour of him and his associates were suspicious.
·Anonymous D — 12.5 years ago, 20 seconds later, 1 hour after the original post[T] [B] #377,214
@377,212 (Nautphagina )
So do you ever feel confliction with your internet persona at all? Or is it constantly evolving depending on where you post? By this I mean do you think you'll ever be truly "accepted" any where (be it online or otherwise)?
So do you ever feel confliction with your internet persona at all? Or is it constantly evolving depending on where you post? By this I mean do you think you'll ever be truly "accepted" any where (be it online or otherwise)?
·Nautphagina (OP) — 12.5 years ago, 5 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[T] [B] #377,215
@previous (D)
No. That's precisely why I tried to kill myself. I fit nowhere. I'm nothing, and nobody, and apparently can't even succeed at the task at hand, since you're all so superior that you believe without having tested that claim that you'd succeed even more. My brain's fucked, when I'm not delusional outright I still have paranoid ideations about what's happening both here and offline, and when I am delusional, you can forget speaking to a human being, I'm just an auto-pilot trollsona using poorly constructed psyops heuristics while I was fuelled on all of my hormonal abuse substances. Though after writing this, again, nothing bodes well for my will to live; I don't even know if I, as in the 'me' aspect of I, exist, it's just an annoying inconvenience that the first person pronoun exists at all because this is not how I feel at the moment, before you accuse me of USI; I'm just completely disembodied, alienated, and without grounding or place. I'm living dead, past what I regard rightfully to be my time, and I've felt this way since after my attempt.
No. That's precisely why I tried to kill myself. I fit nowhere. I'm nothing, and nobody, and apparently can't even succeed at the task at hand, since you're all so superior that you believe without having tested that claim that you'd succeed even more. My brain's fucked, when I'm not delusional outright I still have paranoid ideations about what's happening both here and offline, and when I am delusional, you can forget speaking to a human being, I'm just an auto-pilot trollsona using poorly constructed psyops heuristics while I was fuelled on all of my hormonal abuse substances. Though after writing this, again, nothing bodes well for my will to live; I don't even know if I, as in the 'me' aspect of I, exist, it's just an annoying inconvenience that the first person pronoun exists at all because this is not how I feel at the moment, before you accuse me of USI; I'm just completely disembodied, alienated, and without grounding or place. I'm living dead, past what I regard rightfully to be my time, and I've felt this way since after my attempt.
·Anonymous D — 12.5 years ago, 3 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[T] [B] #377,217
·Nautphagina (OP) — 12.5 years ago, 3 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[T] [B] #377,219
·Anonymous D — 12.5 years ago, 1 hour later, 2 hours after the original post[T] [B] #377,223
@previous (Nautphagina )
I care about you, honestly. I'd always wanted to be friends but your trust issues make that difficult and that I can understand.
I care about you, honestly. I'd always wanted to be friends but your trust issues make that difficult and that I can understand.
+Anonymous E — 12.5 years ago, 1 hour later, 4 hours after the original post[T] [B] #377,229
+FuckAlms !vX8K53rFBI — 12.5 years ago, 45 minutes later, 5 hours after the original post[T] [B] #377,233
·Nautphagina (OP) — 12.5 years ago, 15 minutes later, 5 hours after the original post[T] [B] #377,234
@previous (FuckAlms !vX8K53rFBI)
It was a semi-opportunistic exploit for me to get free weed, I had literally next to zero interest in the cause itself; not that I had used anyone, but my friend felt he was, in some vague way. He felt he was owed something since I had so much as been informed of the exact location of their hideout café for the event (I've referred to those miscreants in my rants as Bohemians), he wasn't owed shit, all his cohort had to do was stop hoarding MJ and let me fuck off. I wasn't feeling at my best, either. I later figured out all of his Facebook associates were actually agents of an anti-fa cabal working secretively to contrive the entire event. Some South African guy in the basement room of the café kept repeatedly flipping his mobile phone on and off calls shouting about 'the money', and he wasn't dressed as a typical rag-tag protester; he wore shades and seemed to have ANC elbems embedded on his clothing. He said he was a 'community organizer' for the event. That's to say, he was on the command chain, running down from Soros, I think, in retrospect. Anyway, I wanted to get out of there, but before I did, I wrote a massive article on my friend's wall espousing my conspiratorial revealations. Big mistake. His anti-fa thug cretins had openly stated their intentions to pagger me in and, since my friend was staying at my house, he actually had my full dox. I still wait for the day to learn that he as also part of the trolling crews surrounding the chans I've associated with, clandestinely distributing my dox behind me, all along.
It was a semi-opportunistic exploit for me to get free weed, I had literally next to zero interest in the cause itself; not that I had used anyone, but my friend felt he was, in some vague way. He felt he was owed something since I had so much as been informed of the exact location of their hideout café for the event (I've referred to those miscreants in my rants as Bohemians), he wasn't owed shit, all his cohort had to do was stop hoarding MJ and let me fuck off. I wasn't feeling at my best, either. I later figured out all of his Facebook associates were actually agents of an anti-fa cabal working secretively to contrive the entire event. Some South African guy in the basement room of the café kept repeatedly flipping his mobile phone on and off calls shouting about 'the money', and he wasn't dressed as a typical rag-tag protester; he wore shades and seemed to have ANC elbems embedded on his clothing. He said he was a 'community organizer' for the event. That's to say, he was on the command chain, running down from Soros, I think, in retrospect. Anyway, I wanted to get out of there, but before I did, I wrote a massive article on my friend's wall espousing my conspiratorial revealations. Big mistake. His anti-fa thug cretins had openly stated their intentions to pagger me in and, since my friend was staying at my house, he actually had my full dox. I still wait for the day to learn that he as also part of the trolling crews surrounding the chans I've associated with, clandestinely distributing my dox behind me, all along.
+Anonymous G — 12.5 years ago, 39 minutes later, 5 hours after the original post[T] [B] #377,235
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