
Was this "rape"?
I was "raped". That is to say, if the genders were reversed, most people would agree that I was raped, but I actually disagree that it was rape, and the genders aren't reversed... anyways.
A girl invited me to a formal charity ball thing, and I agreed. She was a really good friend and it was platonic. I got kind of drunk and she convinced me to drive home drunk (I'm an idiot but it turned out fine).
So we get back to her place and do tequila shots. Obviously I'm sleeping there and I figure I'll just sleep in her bed or whatever. BTW at the time I had a girlfriend who, ummm, probably wouldn't have been happy with sleeping in her bed but we were having problems and I wasn't planning on doing anything sexual with this girl.
So anyways I was absolutely trashed. Completely wasted. She starts initiating on me, and I say "No, stop. I have a girlfriend and I'm drunk". She goes "No you don't" and starts feeling my dick. I protest for a few more seconds, and I don't remember exactly what happened next, but the next thing I know she's sucking my dick. Then she was licking my asshole and I jerked it and cum.
The rimjob was great, but overall a pretty bad experience considering I was in love with my girlfriend at the time, and this experience seemed to somewhat lead into our breakup and me feeling bad for quite some time after.
It was rape and she should be forced to marry you if you wanted it.
Sounds like a traumatic experience. Perhaps counselling will help.