Topic: I cannot sleep and am extremely bored. AMA

+Haze !1hxaUC4q2g — 13.1 years ago #25,670

Please, keep my mind from melting away entirely.

+Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g — 13.1 years ago, 28 seconds later[T] [B] #304,414

Kindly roof yourself.

+Anonymous C — 13.1 years ago, 7 seconds later, 35 seconds after the original post[T] [B] #304,415

@OP
Hi. I too am bored. How are you?

·Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g — 13.1 years ago, 1 minute later, 1 minute after the original post[T] [B] #304,416

@previous (C)
TGComix, nobody wants to speak to you, you're a rampant homosexual-gone-too-far failed-tranny with autism, thanks.

·Haze !1hxaUC4q2g (OP) — 13.1 years ago, 1 minute later, 3 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,417

@304,415 (C)

Lethargic. But, sadly, not sleepy. It's 22:56 over here and I'm supposed to be asleep, but I can't seem to shut up my mind.

·Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g — 13.1 years ago, 53 seconds later, 4 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,418

@previous (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)
Where from Britian? Probably a lowly, negroidic celtnigger from the Highlands or Wales or some-such, or an Anglosaxonically miscegenated Jewess. Pick wisely because either way you're inferior shit.

·Haze !1hxaUC4q2g (OP) — 13.1 years ago, 24 seconds later, 4 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,419

@304,414 (Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g)

As in, Rufanil? Hm... Since I overdosed, my mother's been locking up my scrip benzos, I'm afraid. And Rufanil isn't even among them. Thanks for the idea, though.

·Haze !1hxaUC4q2g (OP) — 13.1 years ago, 1 minute later, 6 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,420

@304,418 (Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g)
G12 master race.

·Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g — 13.1 years ago, 4 seconds later, 6 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,421

@304,419 (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)
And your mother would be apt to place you in an institutional carehome setting where they'd likely sexually exploit your socially retarded human detritic trash torso of a worthless paperweight punching-bag body.

·Haze !1hxaUC4q2g (OP) — 13.1 years ago, 51 seconds later, 7 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,422

@previous (Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g)
Erm, okay?

·Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g — 13.1 years ago, 23 seconds later, 7 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,423

@previous (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)
I'm mething, don't grate me.

+ducky !LZ0E5ojVGY — 13.1 years ago, 1 minute later, 8 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,424

dont do drugs guys

·Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g — 13.1 years ago, 44 seconds later, 9 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,425

@previous (ducky !LZ0E5ojVGY)
I'll rip your torso asunder and eat its innards, all endocrine organs, all of the digestive tract, should be a delectable treat.

(Edited 8 seconds later.)

·Haze !1hxaUC4q2g (OP) — 13.1 years ago, 22 seconds later, 9 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,426

I came here propelled by memories of AnonTalk, but this place seems even more inane. I'm off to distract myself someplace else. Thanks for the hospitality, TinyChan. :3

·Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g — 13.1 years ago, 30 seconds later, 10 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,427

@previous (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)
Quixotic fuckwit, also, talk about inane, you're a boring shit.

·Haze !1hxaUC4q2g (OP) — 13.1 years ago, 11 seconds later, 10 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,428

@304,425 (Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g)

> that clusterfuck of commas

·Anonymous C — 13.1 years ago, 10 seconds later, 10 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,429

@304,416 (Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g)
I'm not TG.

@304,417 (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)
I know that feeling. I tried to tire myself out today so I will sleep well tonight. Sleep is not something that comes easy so I worked out pretty hard for half an hour and then went swimming for an hour. Have you tried melatonin? I have benzos but melatonin seems to work a lot better for me with sleep than benzos. If I want to chill I take benzos and drink a beer, except I have a hard time drinking only one beer so I have to be careful with that.

·ducky !LZ0E5ojVGY — 13.1 years ago, 27 seconds later, 10 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,430

@304,425 (Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g)
I used to fantasize about being eaten alive

@304,426 (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)
smoke a lot of pot and eat a lot of food youll pass out

·Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g — 13.1 years ago, 1 second later, 10 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,431

@304,428 (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)
> that autistic grammatical compulsion

·Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g — 13.1 years ago, 1 minute later, 12 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,432

@304,429 (C)
> melatonin

Enjoy your braindamage.

·Anonymous C — 13.1 years ago, 4 seconds later, 12 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,433

@304,430 (ducky !LZ0E5ojVGY)

> I used to fantasize about being eaten alive

Could you explain more about this?

> smoke a lot of pot
This is always a good idea. I don't think the eating a lot part is the best thing to do.

·Anonymous C — 13.1 years ago, 33 seconds later, 13 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,434

@304,432 (Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g)
How does it cause brain damage?

·Haze !1hxaUC4q2g (OP) — 13.1 years ago, 39 seconds later, 13 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,435

@304,429 (C)
Alas, my family don't allow me to take very much strenuous physical exercise. I've just been discharged from an ED unit, and my mother has it in her head that I shouldn't be exercising. :c

I'm on 8mg melatonin, but its effects seem only to apply some nights. Others... well, I end up on the Internet into the early hours.

·Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g — 13.1 years ago, 25 seconds later, 14 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,436

@304,434 (C)
Fucks up neurotransmitter mechanisms because of its high affinity to either dopamine or seretonin receptors, I forget exactly which, but the scans showing grey matter scarring look convincing.

·Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g — 13.1 years ago, 1 minute later, 15 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,437

@304,435 (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)
You can exercise your right to off yourself if you wish; alas, you're not creative enough to find a way which doesn't rely on the precious attention-seeking methods which your mother has purloined.

(Edited 13 seconds later.)

·Haze !1hxaUC4q2g (OP) — 13.1 years ago, 40 seconds later, 16 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,438

@304,430 (ducky !LZ0E5ojVGY)

> I used to fantasize about being eaten alive

Me, too. I used to be a vorarephile. I still find the idea, er, appealing.

> smoke a lot of pot and eat a lot of food youll pass out
I've already eaten a awful lot today. I wish I had pot... ; ;

·Anonymous C — 13.1 years ago, 1 minute later, 17 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,439

@304,435 (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)
What is an ED unit?
> 8mg
That's a lot higher of a dose than I take. Have you always had trouble sleeping? I can count on one hand the number of times that I have laid in bed and fallen asleep without more than an hour or two passing in which I think about literally everything possible. A lot of times I wake up thinking, it's like turning on the radio in the middle of a song.

·Haze !1hxaUC4q2g (OP) — 13.1 years ago, 13 seconds later, 17 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,440

@304,437 (Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g)
Oh, it's always in my mind somewhere. I tried to hang myself once, and have tried to jump off high places twice - every time, I was caught and restrained before I could follow through. Oh, well.

·ducky !LZ0E5ojVGY — 13.1 years ago, 9 seconds later, 17 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,441

@304,438 (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)
awww all youd need is pot to sleep

@304,433 (C)
just elaborate rape fantasies

·Anonymous C — 13.1 years ago, 45 seconds later, 18 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,442

@304,436 (Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g)
Damn. Melatonin works so well. I guess I'll go back to the valerian root.

+mechano !b.ltBX1QuE — 13.1 years ago, 15 seconds later, 18 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,443

@304,425 (Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g)

> I'll rip your torso asunder and eat its innards, all endocrine organs, all of the digestive tract, should be a delectable treat.

Why am I not surprised.

·Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g — 13.1 years ago, 4 seconds later, 19 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,444

@304,439 (C)
Eating disorder is my guess.
@304,440 (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)
You wanted to be caught because you're a compulsive exhibitionist. Stop feigning sincerity, you're just another whore.

·Haze !1hxaUC4q2g (OP) — 13.1 years ago, 7 seconds later, 19 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,445

@304,439 (C)
An eating disorders hospital. I had anorexia, apparently.

I've always had sleeping problems, yes. ; ; nothing seems to help to a meaningful extent.

·Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g — 13.1 years ago, 33 seconds later, 19 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,446

@304,442 (C)
Valerian root has a tolerance profile but it's a damn sight better than anything ending in -pam.

·Anonymous C — 13.1 years ago, 1 minute later, 20 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,448

@304,441 (ducky !LZ0E5ojVGY)
Rape that involves being eaten? By a human?

·Haze !1hxaUC4q2g (OP) — 13.1 years ago, 1 minute later, 21 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,449

Valerian root never worked for me. Sigh... The only thing that has ever made me sleep was Ativan, quite a lot of it.

·Haze !1hxaUC4q2g (OP) — 13.1 years ago, 40 seconds later, 22 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,450

@304,448 (C)
That's the best type, in my humble, sexually immature opinion.

·Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g — 13.1 years ago, 44 seconds later, 23 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,451

@304,449 (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)
> implying anybody directed that comment to you

Yes, definite attention seeking exhibitionist. You have more problems than anorexia.

·Anonymous C — 13.1 years ago, 2 minutes later, 25 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,452

@304,445 (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)
Are you feeling better? I've never known anyone with an eating disorder. That's kind of a lie because I'm an American and there are a lot of people who seem to not be able to stop eating.

@304,446 (Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g)
Valerian root is very calming and it doesn't have the medicinal, groggy after effects that melatonin gives. That's my experience with the two. Valerian root is also really subtle, melatonin hits me like a hammer and puts me down like a darted animal.

·Anonymous C — 13.1 years ago, 1 minute later, 27 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,453

@304,449 (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)

> Valerian root never worked for me. Sigh... The only thing that has ever made me sleep was Ativan, quite a lot of it.
Ativan is nice and chill.

·Haze !1hxaUC4q2g (OP) — 13.1 years ago, 4 seconds later, 27 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,454

@304,452 (C)
I'm not feeling very much better, really, because I seem to have gone from inability to eat to inability to stop eating. I don't think I'm fat yet, but I suspect that I will be soon, and I suspect that that will snap me back into the ED mindset. ; ;

·Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g — 13.1 years ago, 17 seconds later, 27 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,455

@304,452 (C)
Forgot to mention too, we synthesize melatonin internally anyway, so I imagine it disrupts whatever mechanism is involved in its balance too, though I'll confess to not having read as much on it as I have of other things. Valerian root is pretty safe with no counterindications to speak of.

·Haze !1hxaUC4q2g (OP) — 13.1 years ago, 1 minute later, 28 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,456

@304,453 (C)
Ativan is brilliant. Sadly, I no longer have it prescribed, and the street market is nonexistent where I currently stay, a very, very remote area populated chiefly by tweed-wearing Tories and sheep.

·ducky !LZ0E5ojVGY — 13.1 years ago, 2 minutes later, 31 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,457

@304,448 (C)
yeah like a crazy person
used to love crazy people
due to video games movies books etc

·Haze !1hxaUC4q2g (OP) — 13.1 years ago, 1 minute later, 33 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,460

@previous (ducky !LZ0E5ojVGY)
I once read a news story about a German or Austrian man who solicited a man on a dating website and consensually ate him. It was hot.

·Anonymous C — 13.1 years ago, 1 minute later, 34 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,461

@304,454 (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)
You don't eat then eat and feel fat so you stop eating? A cycle like that?

@304,450 (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)
Lol'd

@304,455 (Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g)
I prefer valerian root. You can open the capsules and make a tea out of it which has its own flavor and does not taste that bad.

·Haze !1hxaUC4q2g (OP) — 13.1 years ago, 1 minute later, 36 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,462

I think I'm going to put the iPad down and give sleep one last try. If by 1am I'm still awake, I'll give up.

Thank you for keeping me company through these quiet hours. Good night. :3

(Edited 35 seconds later.)

·Haze !1hxaUC4q2g (OP) — 13.1 years ago, 58 seconds later, 37 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,463

@304,461 (C)
That's exactly the cycle. :c

·Dr. Autphag !FaiGWhdD4g — 13.1 years ago, 12 seconds later, 37 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,464

@304,462 (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)
Yes, and fuck off for good.

·Anonymous C — 13.1 years ago, 3 seconds later, 37 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,465

@304,456 (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)
That sucks that you can't get any meds. Ducky is right about the weed. It's better than pills. Get some weed.

@304,457 (ducky !LZ0E5ojVGY)
Lol

·Anonymous C — 13.1 years ago, 59 seconds later, 38 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,466

@304,462 (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)
Good night and best of luck with your eating problems. Sleep well.

·ducky !LZ0E5ojVGY — 13.1 years ago, 1 minute later, 40 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,468

@previous (C)
LOL!!

@304,462 (Haze !1hxaUC4q2g)
goodnight op I love you

·Anonymous C — 13.1 years ago, 3 minutes later, 43 minutes after the original post[T] [B] #304,473

@previous (ducky !LZ0E5ojVGY)
It was just well wishes for a good night and best of luck with the eating problems.

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