TinyChan

So a repressed memory surfaced after extensive therapy and medication taking. It's when the boys in grade school would play the brutal game of oreo where they play rock paper scissors and the loser ends up asking out the ugliest girl in the class which the winner chooses and I was the target for these games... so weird because I was unpopular shy nerdy girl that never messed with them when my smart self said no when he said will you go out with me he said thank God and then said eww... like after that whenever a guy asks me out I think its a prank or joke... guys in grade school never hit on me only bullied me and as an adult guys flirt with me and some are shy I feel like an imposter and a fake and confused ugly and traumatized to add more fire to the burn I also was the target of the kill fuck marry games where the boys would mention 3 people and they decided who to kill, marry, or fuck.. and they always said it outloud so I could hear too so fucking weird needless to say my name was always in kill.. cried all day over this shit this is why I have deep rooted insecurities about my looks and dating... I feel like a loser and want to disappear sometimes.