I've been obsessively mourning about the past every day, constantly lamenting the loss of a bygone era, seeing the current state of affairs is unbearable. The absurdities of life, this ego-driven culture of outrage and offense-taking. It's not going well. I feel an overwhelming urge to disconnect from everything, I want to cut all my ties, I don't want to be a part of something that's completely out of my control. I don't know what I'm doing anymore, I'm just so aimless.
There was once a sense of control and creativity, tools for self-expression and exploration. It's all now a distant memory, everything devolved into a commercialized monstrosity. Everything has been reduced to mere commodities, where people are forced to pander to the whims of advertisers and algorithms, designed to appeal to the lowest common denominator without ever pushing any boundaries due to a fear of taking risks, spawning a legion of copycats, each more soulless and shallow than the last, a mere exercise in exploitation, where users are treated as nothing more than cash cows.
The world around us has become increasingly controlled, as governments and corporations exert their influence over every aspect of our lives. And then there's the death of useful information. Google, once a powerful tool for learning and discovery, has become a mere portal to a sea of irrelevant, AI-generated, SEO-driven content that's also trying to push an agenda.
I'm sorry that I keep talking about the same exact shit, over and over again, I don't know where to go anymore, nobody to look up to. I'm stuck in a loop, this vicious cycle, and it's not getting any better… oh, look at the time.